Background: I’ve was friends with this girl for a few years and we would hang out every few months do to the distance between where we lived, north/South Carolina. So time went on and we would hang out way more often, I would go to her and spend the night or weekend or even a few days. We would share her bed when I was over. Eventually I asked her out on a date and she declined. Which was fine I didn’t push it and accepted the response. We continued to be friends and it seemed like we moved past this situation well. Fast forward a month and at a party we got drunk and she suggested that we do go on a date. I was hesitant about this because she previously rejected me. I agreed, I also suggested multiple times before the date that it’s fine if we cancel this date and I asked her if she was sure she wanted this. She said she was positive. Being that we live far from each other and that we both have very busy lives I told her that I wouldn’t be upset if she wanted to “date” other people during this whole situation until things could be serious between us. Before our date I told her that if this doesn’t work out that we can’t be friends anymore. She understood. So here we are on our date and she says that she just wasn’t attracted to me. Which was odd but fine okay. We discussed that we are really good friends and that we could try and see where things go on the sexual side of the relationship. We go back to her house after the date and here we make out multiple times and it went well. Every step of the way we asked if this was fine with one another and if we enjoyed it. At her house she even said are we soul mates and are we going to get married. Seemed like good signs to me. So the following morning we make out more and decide an activity for another day. The whole time I asked her if she was sure she wanted this and she said yes. So I go home and it seems well. The next day I get a call from her and she pulls a 180 and basically said like this isn’t going to work because she just can’t picture a sexual relationship with me. I was upset and excepted what she had to say. The following week I saw her and we talked and ended on a good note. Kinda. I was still upset because it felt like she was just wasting/f*cking with me. Fast forward a month, she talked to me twice. The second time was to say here’s your stuff back from my house. When I asked her about why she hasn’t talked to me, she basically told me that I expect to much from our friendship. We used to talk multiple times a week. Over the course of the next few weeks she invited me over to her parents house for the holidays. At first I agreed but decide to cancel on her for obvious reasons. It’s weird to invite someone over you rejected multiple times. At this point she only really texts me random tic toks or memes about stuff I would like. We eventually stop talking for 2 months. I never reach out first because apparently I expect to much from her. But she texted me asking how I was and that she got a new pet, the pet thing is funny because we talked about me going with her to pick out a pet. I’m not sure if she did this to try and talk to me or more so to say look I went without you. It sucks because I do miss her but it’s not fair for me to always wonder what her intentions are. Also I would have assumed she would get the idea that we can’t be friends she hurt me twice. What do you guys think?