About last year in the summer I met a girl online and we became friends. We never met but we would use snap chat/Instagram to text and call each other. This was around end of May early June. We really hit it off, we called every night and texted a lot throughout the day. We had a solid friendship and everything leading up to a normal relationship. Then in September she told me she had feelings for me, so I told her the same. We didn’t date right after that but I asked her if she wanted to start a real relationship and she said she wanted to do we started dating each other. Then October came around and everything started falling apart. My dad took my phone away for 4 days and my heart sank as I knew I wasn’t going to be able to contact her for a while so I got really depressed because I loved her and I was going to feel so bad once I got my phone back to tell her what had happened. 4 days pass and I get my phone back by convincing my dad to give it to me. I went into my snap chat and found many messages of her telling me “why are you not texting me back” “is it something I said” “if I did anything wrong please tell me I miss you so much” “please don’t do this” are you ok??”. And other messages like that. I explained what happened and she was relieved and she understood and we got back to business. When I tried to call her after I got my phone back she would answer and hang up. Sends me a message angry at me ( I can’t remember what she said) but long story short she said she didn’t care anymore about us and I got mad for the first time and said I didn’t care aswell and just told her why she was acting different and dumb and I called quits. She said she was joking and never meant anything like that but I told her she can’t be joking like that and said just to break up because I truly loved her and when she just threw away our relationship we’ve worked hard on for many months I got a feeling so bad in my stomach I was going to cry but I didn’t. We parted ways. I got texts from her saying she wanted to get back together and I dismissed them. I texted her a month later to check up on her and she said she was doing fine and I remember we got in a little argument and she blocked me. It’s almost been a year since and I’ve dated a handful of girls but they never made me feel like I was loved like my ex. It’s my biggest regret that I never got back with her but my friend said it was ok because we lived across the state but I still was in love. I miss her and I have her socials I just want to text her but I don’t know what will happen I’m just scared and very very depressed. I shouldn’t have acted like ass. I just don’t know what to do. Text her back or if there’s another option.