I’m currently writing this post at 6 am because I woke up with this thought and couldn’t go back to sleep. Just for background, I’m a 22M that’s about to finish college and I never had a girlfriend or been on a date. I was rejected by almost every girl I liked and was dropped/ghosted by every girl I met on dating apps. Quite a few people have told me that I’m good looking and that I have a fun personality but I’m beginning to doubt them.

I tried very hard to make myself into someone that people would want to date. Starting two years ago, I began exercising more regularly and changed my diet to lose 40 pounds. I changed what I wore to be more fashionable and I began seeing a therapist. However, it feels like my efforts were for nothing. I’m constantly looking for the next thing about myself to “fix.” I pick apart my personality traits, my posture, the size of my arms, my hair, etc.

I still cry here and there thinking about how I might end up like a lot of the redditors who have posted saying that they’re 25 or even 30 who have had similar experiences and have still not found someone. I’m honestly torn myself apart thinking about this but it seems like nobody I know has the words to help me.

Edit: you can check my profile for posts with my face if you want to know what I look like