So, the last 4 months have been totally bliss. Never questioned my feelings, our relationship was picture perfect. We never fought, had the most beautiful in depth talks about everything from where we want to be in the next 5 years to how many kids we want and what we want our lives to look like. Out of no where 2 days ago he showed up at my door when I was done work for the day, naturally because I wasn't expecting him I jumped into the shower. Turns out he had shown up to break my heart and couldn't do it. He showed up again last night and totally crushed my world. All I ever want is happiness, a family, I want to be a mother & I honestly thought I'd get that with him. Im sitting here with tears streaming down my face because I didn't see this coming in the slightest. Im totally fucking heart broken. It will get easier but this totally sucks. Im a good woman who would do anything for my spouse & I just can't believe my perfect reality fell apart in a mere hour. I just need to vent; my friends im sure will get tired of listening to me cry soon. But yah.