I’m a black male

I’m attractive but don’t have a matching personality

I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, but I’ve recovered enough to the point that I can go on dates and whatnot

I feel as if that it has had a significant effect on my personality

I’m really clueless to the stereotype of who I’m supposed to be (I’m considered “white”)

I live/grew up in a college town(PWI), so I don’t really struggle with dating apps

The proportion of races are skewed so I really don’t have a choice but to date outside my race

That brings up issues of racism and I’m really just uncomfortable most of the time

I use to be bothered by women that obviously were fetishizing me but later came to realize that they were the only ones that I enjoyed having sex with

The ones I’d pursue typically couldn’t handle my size while the ones that pursued me with a fetish could

Those relationships are not pleasing and don’t last long

As a result I’m not very enthusiastic about dating or sex