I'm not saying this to sound arrogant, cocky or any of that. I just pride myself in treating the woman I'm with like a queen.

However, in the beginning, the waiting for responses to texts, waiting to make plans, whatever else, it kills me and gives me the worst anxiety. Some women misconstrue how I am as like being controlling, but they realize that it's not that at all as while I want to be kept in the loop, I'd never tell someone what they can and can't do as that just doesn't interest me. You're your own human, as am I. I guess I just consider it to be common courtesy as I do the same for the people I surround myself with... If you're gonna go out, just let me know as I'd do the same for you. Otherwise, go with God and have a great time.

And the irony of all of it is that I'm not an insecure man. I am, however, human, and this I guess is part of my being human. Nonetheless, it's not a process I enjoy.

I don't really know why I'm writing this today. Well, I guess I do in reality. I've been seeing this amazing new woman and I've been dealing with this anxiety shit again. It's been a long while and admittedly I didn't miss it. Hope everyone had a great holiday.