I was at an edm music festival, my first one (though I’m no stranger to edm shows and what comes with it). Day 1 I met a guy who gave me a light show. We instantly connected and were like staring at each other all night and hugging, talking and stuff. We exchanged info and he met me Saturday.

We spent most of that day together. I had to sit a lot so when I was feeling bad we would go someplace warm and just talk and stare in each other’s eyes. We talked about everythingggggg over the next 3 days. I even extended my trip a day to spend another night with him. He invited me to a BBQ with his rave fam and they basically offered me a place to stay for next year.

One day when we were laying in bed talking, he asked me, “no pressure at all. I want your honest answer cause I’ll be able to tell if you’re not truthful (he’s very.. intuitive?). He asked if I loved him. I said yes. He said he felt the same and had since we laid in the grass and talked all night, danced all night. We talked bout twin flames and how there are signs when you’re to meet them, and it can come at inopportjne times.. we both said this had never happened to us. Both questioned whether it was drugs involved but agreed it went beyond that.

So... I decided that since I’d never connected with someone so purely before that I’d have to tell my bf at the time (we were poly but had agreed to just not text a whole lot so I could enjoy my first edc) But I hoped he’d want to still be with me, and have an open relationship since that’s what we’d done prior to getting in a relationship..and I still love him.. but he basically was like well I’ll give 30 days notice and move out but we will still be friends, I still love you. I had a feeling something like this would happen, but all I want is you to be happy and maybe this is a sign we are better off as friends since we never had that “spark”.

So we spent all the time together face to face. I get home and turns out he’s a terrible texter. Just not a phone person at all. We finally video chat and I explain to him maybe we should set up times to talk since he stays busy. He agrees. We video chat once and it’s like we are back there and all is normal again. He apologizes and says he’ll be better about letting me know if he’s just busy or whatever. I straight up TOLD him, the one thing you can do to really hurt me is up and ghost me.

Sunday we spoke again on videochat. It was like normal, said he missed me, we made plans for a camping trip in a month for him to come to me. He seemed pretty excited. Monday he said he was starting a month long class at his military base, and couldn’t talk much. I said nbd talk later. Tuesday I asked how it went, he said “good day. But bad news I’m being deployed”

I said “wait what?” Because i could’ve sworn I asked if he could get deployed at his job and he said no (maybe I was wrong? Works on radars..) he said yea so starting July I can’t go anywhere.

Literally all I snapped him (cause we primarily used snapchat) was “well can we talk on the phone about this? Not now but later?”. No reply so several hours later I asked if it was possible for me to just go to him instead during the time we planned.

Tuesday, find out he blocked me on Snapchat. No idea why. I’ve never felt more hurt in my life, because the kind of connection I felt to him was unlike anything I’ve ever felt in my 28 years. He learned the deepest part of my soul in 3 days and now has broken it.

It may sound silly. Hell it sounds silly in my head. But it WAS real. And now idk what to do. I still have his phone number. His brother who I met there also, still follows me on IG. I don’t know if I should call and just leave a final VM. The not having closure part is what kills me. If you don’t see it working, OKAY, just tell me that. So tired of waking up sad. Thinking you know someone at least at their most basic level (and for me, he was the most warm, kind hearted, genuine person I’d ever met).

I just need advice.