Hey all, I’m a 34 yo man who overcame a lot and did a lot. My story is wild and delusional for most but right now, it’s sweet as hell. I had serious trauma at my first attempt at sex at 18 and falsely believed sex was a selfish act at the expense of others. I never let myself do this but realized women are usually hornier than I am. Sadly, my recent venture into dating has been wild.

I’m a realist so if this is humble brag, sorry, I never believed it til recently so bragging sounds silly to me. I’m 6’1 charismatic, healthy, empathetic and very polite and successful. Metrosexual apparently because I’m from LA… my lack of dating weirded everyone out especially my all female friends lol. I just had some work to do. I did it and did it well.

I just did my first casual experience within a few days of hopping off the apps. It was wild but with a couple so no passion. Fun but this beautiful girl I FaceTimed today for 4 hours wants me to come over tomorrow and have sex. I trust her and think she’s a good person. But has such a low expectation of men. She’s glad I’m not homeless and I’m about to ball out with her tomorrow. We’re both passionate and appreciate authenticity. My exes (all still friends) all told me never to have casual sex because I’ll hurt people and break hearts. That horrifies me. I’ve had so much pain in my life I vowed never to cause it if I can. I do all the time because I’m oblivious and scared but she knows everything, and still wants to try.

I confirmed she’d be okay without having sex in case I’m triggered but she wants it and so do it. I honestly can’t help but think I’m going to cause feelings and would rather find my forever than hurt someone to get my dick wet. I experienced what I needed and just don’t want to be a bad person. Thanks.