...but I haven't really been able to "hit it off" with someone romantically. I'm very much a late bloomer. Some of it is just how I am personally, but some of it is due to how I was treated by my family and "the system."

The professor who taught my community college program's capstone course had an entire lesson on Microsoft Active Directory where he tried to explain it using a series of metaphors regarding Miller's Ale House on Route 17 in New Jersey. Presumably, his metaphors made it easy to understand, but it didn't for me. He used such terms as "bottle service," whatever that means. Sorry, but I'm not a social person.

The one damn time that school dances had existed me, and only because of a messed up social group that I had no choice buy to take part in, my supposed "friends" abandoned me telling me, "Come on! DANCE! IT'S FUN!" No, it would not have been "fun." Who the hell do you think I am? I've always been a complete non-conformist. Social structures are WEEEEIRRRRDDDD.

When I was at that high school, those kids were so goddamned weird. I wanted to refer to a lot of things as non-distinctly as possible to avoid putting much thought into whatever it was that those things were. Thus, the school was "the establishment" because it was a building!!! People thought I was saying hippie things there. I referred to the student body as "the freaks" and each student was a "freak." That was uncalled for, but I was so frustrated those four years. I referred to music as "sound" and to dancing as "gesticulating." And now here I am trying to date when most people can't possibly understand me and when I don't understand most people.

When I was 18, forced social interaction went away for me. That was the greatest gift that I had received up until then. Christmas stopped existing for me, which was good because I don't understand Christmas. Halloween, which I greatly fear, existed to a bare minimum for me. Of course, I saw kids around town with costumes on. That was really it, though.

But you know, when you try to get yourself out there, it's not going to all be about you. People are going to like the things that I didn't understand. And that's pretty much it for this post. I'm not really looking for advice. It was really more of a vent. Thank you so much for reading.