I 31m am a terrible partner have been with 26f for just under 5 yrs until last week for the past year we have had lots of arguments mostly due to my own faults one of the main reasons was my inability to communicate that is a need for her I neglected when she would bring up how she felt I took it as a fight and as an attack on me I basically felt that every conversation was how I am terrible this or terrible that and that's not what she was trying todo or say and I would either go mute with no answers to give or turn into an argument I'm not sure when or why I lost that communication with her but I know alot has happened through the year that didnt help we have a 3 yr old kid we both work we both have limited time my job put me on nights things went downhill pretty quick after that our time together was even less our intimacy was practically gone our intimacy has always been amazing just limited I made some big financial decisions without her and dismissed her input I lied about some things I hid some things and started a business that I was not financially ready to start putting myself into a hole and somewhat hurting her financially because of this I have to start working out of town to dig myself out of this hole I broke up with her last week thinking we weren't going to work thru our problems and I didn't want to I have so much love for her but I didn't want us to hate each other we still have to parent a 3 yr old breaking it off was the biggest mistake yet on top of the other ones iv already made it took alot for me to realize how bad I have fucked up with her I want to fix things if she's willing I have contacted a therapist to help me with my selfishness to help with my communication to basically help me not be a shitty person and shitty partner something I should have done when my poor communication was evident i feel like the biggest pile of shit and im so fucking sad if she's smart she will run the fuck away from me