Hello! This is just a venting post, but if anyone else would like to share their thoughts, you're welcome to of course.

I am 19F and dating in my generation is incredibly difficult, like Oh My Days-

I know I'm still young and I know I still need to experience more of life, but I still want to be able to find love (as would anyone).

Most of my friends are people in their late 30s, most of which are either married or dating someone. I've tried making friends with people around my age but that never really worked out. If I tried making friends with guys around my age, they'd eventually ask to hook up? If I made friends with girls around my age, they'd feel like I was some type of competition? Like what the absolute hell-

I went on a date with a guy who was like 3 years older than me and it went well I suppose (besides him constantly looking at his phone), but after a week he kind of was just dry, cold and distant. When I finally decided to tell him we should go our separate ways (after a couple weeks of very dry texting) and that I wished him all the best in life, he snapped for some reason? Like he just got so mad for me supposedly "ditching him" (his words, not mine). It's like he wanted me more when I decided that I didn't want him anymore? I don't know, it was very exhausting and draining.

I've had one "successful" relationship, it was an age gap one. Me and the guy ended on good terms, our ideas for our future just didn't align with each other. But that's a whole different topic.

If anyone has any advice or if you just want to share your thoughts about this, as said before, feel free to do so.