So as the title states I genuinely have been fighting this passed year andAhalf to not text her and to leave it in the past. But I still love her and want to be with her even tho I don't think I could ever be what she needs/wants in a bf, I could tell that from the beginning, on our first few dates she was so uninterested even when I was trying to make conversations, I ended up breaking up with her because the anxiety that I wasn't ever going to be enough drove me crazy to where I couldn't even go to work (I've never been a social person so going out with her was such an experience getting to actually meet someone who seems like they liked me) but after I broke up with her i couldn't leave it be, I needed to text her, but a majority of people in my life say to not talk to her and to leave it behind me. It's just so hard not to