Hey there, I'm Jay.

I've recently had a string of heartbreaks that leave me feeling lonelier then ever before. One person apparently had been using me as a side piece, and the other.... serious communication breakdown due to multiple differences.

My mental health has been garbage lately as a result. Ever since October, I've just felt a slow and steady decline in my mental health, with everything imploding last month. I took a few months off school, I isolated, I resulted to unsafe coping mechanisms, and I'm just. Not really doing well.

I tried to reach out to old friends that I had fallings out with a year and a half ago in my desperation, but I'm worried that I'm just going to overextend myself once again for other people.

I'm diagnosed with BPD, which I know is a massive turn-off for some people, so everything I feel is just. Enhanced a hundred-fold making it hard to cope when my entire world is falling apart in front of me, and I just don't have the energy to pick up the pieces.I

don't even know why I'm posting here, Maybe I'm just looking for someone who can relate, maybe I'm just crying for attention.