And I feel like it can't come any faster!

In short, I can live a routine of basically going home and going to work.

I live in rural mn, as a progressive and can feel kind of lonely...

For the most part I can live alone, I am fixing up a house and can become goal orientated on trying to get my house in order before dating.

But, recently my place of employment hired a 22f (i am 35m) from "the cities" I feel like I am completely in love! I haven't felt this kind-of chemistry before... I am kin of socially awkward , but sometimes I leave work and when I am alone in my car I start crying and pleading for her love.

But I am also convincing myself, and I think this is logical. I am simply a lonely thirsty guy that has mentally latched unto someone too young for me and my feelings of this degree of attachment may not be healthy.

I go out to the bars more often, which sometimes helps dampen the feelings towards here (getting some feminine atention elsewhere) and the town I go to the bars at is quite progressive, which helps.

I am unsure if I am lookingfor advice or other peoples' stories, especially since I am seeking therapy or if it just feels good to rant. But here I am, talking about my final cracking point in deciding to set up an appointment.