I have found dating to be exhausting. I'm tired of flirting, posting online, swiping profiles, being ghosted, trying to write a good intro, trying to make eye contact, speed dating, wondering if she likes me, etc. It's all too goddamn much.

I think one of the biggest mistakes I've made is only allowing certain things to make me happy. As much as I want one, I can't allow a relationship to be the only thing in my life that brings me joy. I've worried constantly that I'll never be "enough" for her, there's always gonna be some guy who's more rich, confident, and hotter than I am.

But my self-worth isn't defined by how dateable I am. It doesn't mean I'm a bad person. All I have to do is take a break and work on myself for a bit.

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