But also hurts just as much. Every time I see her I get so excited I feel my stomach drop and my heart beat a little faster. Whenever we hold eye contact I end up blushing and everytime she touches me she drives me crazy. We tease eachother a lot and sometimes it just escalates into playfully saying mean things to eachother, but in the end when we are walking alone together she is really sweet and we talk about whatever. I find her very pretty, yes, but her smile and intelligence is something you can't beat and it just makes me melt.

She does have a boyfriend though :( she mentioned him like, once? to me and then after that she came to me only one other time saying she's breaking/broke up with him or is unsure if she wants to... It really sucks not only bc she has a boyfriend but idk, bc of these feelings I have for her now it makes it worse that he's kind of a POS.

This all sounds probably really really dumb but honestly its the first time I think I've caught feelings for someone like this in a long time. For a while I honestly thought I wouldn't meet someone who I really liked until I met her. UGH. I don't even know if I should stick around with her because I know the heartbreak is inevitable, it's just a matter of how long I wanna postpone it. :(