Every other Saturday evening I'll venture to the nearest big town an hour away to hang around downtown and go into a club. Even after putting a few drinks into me and moving around a bit I still end up being invisible and spend the rest of the night sitting alone outside on the patio, while everyone else is with friends or significant others. Even if someone did speak to me I honestly wouldn't know what to say or how to keep it going for more than a couple minutes since I'm a walking husk of no life experience. People have said I'm attractive enough but I don't believe them considering my situation and I never have any activity across the 4 dating apps I use. Going this long with no human interaction of any kind is really wearing on me. Not sure how much longer I can go.