I don't even know what to think or feel. I feel so much and so little. Like omg I can't believe that's how it ends. It's so sad.

I love all of the characters I feel like I've spent so much time with them in this series, especially since I listened to the audiobook version. And I love the ending with sussannah Ed Jake and Oy. Roland's ending is so cruel though. It makes me so sad to think about.

I do wish mordred was a bit more powerful though he died in a lame way.

I just can't believe how many times Stephen tried to make us think Roland would die for sure and not make it. And honestly I think that Roland dying would have been a happier ending for him. Death is so much better than the hell he is going through.

I'm having some existential horror which I think was the goal.

I plan to reread the series again as ebooks because listening to books and reading are both different and I want to see it all again with prior knowledge and also experience it a different way.

I won't start immediately though. I want to marinate for a bit. I was so locked in and now it's just over but it also isn't over because it's never over. I feel like I'm being mind fucked.

I won't lie, the dark tower series has lost me in a few places, but it's always managed to get me locked in again. And I was never more locked in than the end of the last book. So much build up and I was so there for it.

I've got some feelings to work through.