today I used my moms car that I’m not used to driving. I had to put it into 4 wheel and something went wrong, the car got stuck (on like an inch of snow) and wouldn’t move. A bunch of signals were popping up on the dash too. So I called him and asked him to come help me, and he did, then got upset with me for “messing” with the car. His tone got increasingly angry and I told him that, and that he needed to cool down. He got in my moms car after fixing it (leaving me w the one he brought) and went to a shop to make sure it was okay. It turns out I had just put the car into some weird in between-gear that caused a bunch of signals to flash on the dash. he went home without saying a word. Later I found out he went home, yelled at my mom as it was all somehow her fault, then told her that sometimes he wishes he never married her and sometimes wishes he didn’t have kids. My mom told me this, and said my siblings and I just need to be kinder to him because work is stressing him out. I told her that stress is no excuse to say something like that. Anyway I’ve been upset all night and I feel so unloved and unwanted, I just wanted to share this somewhere. Thank you all for listening and I hope you’re doing good