TW DEATH ⚠️⚠️⚠️ My dad has always been abusive. Not physically, but psychologically. Every time my mom does something that he considers that it's wrong, he would point out every mistake she has made at the very first opportunity he has. And when my bro and I were little we were kind of hyperactive and we used to run all over the place (it didn't really matter where we were xD) and every time we got hurt, instead of actually caring for our physical integrity, he would get angry at us and say how useless we were. So he's certainly not the best dad out there IG.

So, the deal is that recently, he went to the hospital bcs he had a health problem caused by his addictions, and when he got made a TAC and the doctor found "something" on his right lung (he smokes 24/7). He's gonna get a biopsy done on it. The thing is that he also has anemia, which is a symptom of lung cancer.

Tbh? When I think about him dying, I can't feel anything like, I should feel sad, he's my dad after all right?

The other day he came to me and said to "don't hold a grudge for what I've done all along these years if I die". Of course I will. The way he treats my mom makes me sick, and i could never forgive him. All these times he threatened my mom with killing her, oh boy, these moments are gonna stick with me all my life.

But either way, knowing what he has done, I feel bad for thinking like this...

So, am I the asshole?