It took me a while to realize my dads never going to be the person I want to be. Now I feel really bad because when I was younger my anger towards my emotionally manipulative and abusive father were directed all at my mom who was the only parent that actually cared and was there for me in the first place !?

I have already came to accept that my dad is a horrible person that will never even remotely meet my expectations but that realization doesn’t seem to help at all. At least now I’m blaming the right person though 🤷🏽‍♀️ but I want to stop thinking about my dad completely. It’s draining and a complete waste of time but I don’t know where to start when it comes to healing.

Even talking to my therapist about my dad is too emotional for me at the moment.