I was always a calm child, I was always close to my mother, I always loved her very much, I never liked my father until I was 4 years old, he hadn't done anything wrong to me, at 4 years old, almost 5 years old, I got a tiny little kitten, all black, he was very cute and handsome, his name was kabi, i quickly got emotionally attached to her i just calmed down with her by my side, one day i was crying a lot for no reason, my father took kabi and threw her to backyard and sent me to sleep... I woke up the next day with my father's van lighting up I looked out my bedroom window and well... kabi was no longer with us, in fact he was between the wheels of the van,when he came back from work i asked about my cat he said "it's your cat you have to know" i asked many other times about kabi but he always denied i suffered a lot for the loss even at 5 years old i couldn't talk to someone without crying , I started having anxiety attacks and many rage attacks to the point of hitting my brother, my father worked all day and never paid attention to meat the age of 12 i assumed my sexuality my father called me a "whore" and things like that, it hurt me a lot i never spoke to him properly since that day, now i'm 14 almost 15 i'm waiting for my 15th party, I really wanted my father to dance the 15 waltz with me (it's a tradition in my region), but my father broke my heart, there are 3 weeks left until my party and my father? Well... he decided he wants to travel 1 month outside Europe, I'm completely devastated, thinking about canceling my party, I've always dreamed of dancing the waltz with my father, I've been looking forward to that day for 5 years...

Should I cancel the party?