And thank goodness this spring is warm and not mild or cold like last year. I’ve been running a lot the last 10 days or so and had a few runs at the start of March. (About 20 miles the last 10 days) which is great because I’ve usually been getting maybe two 2 mile runs a week when it gets warm out) I’ve also been struggling with basic music theory with my band which is a jazz fusion project if anybody is familiar with that. I had a jrpg game Trails to Azure also preoccupy a lot of my free time a week after I stopped so between weighing off that and lowering my caffeine consumption (which had been in play about a month before I stopped. I was drinking 600-700mg a day on average) All this and working at a music store full time, which can have its ups and downs. I missed the last week appointment with my therapist (had to cover for someone at work) but was present the other weeks for them. I don’t think I’ll try another SSRI or SNRI. I’ve taken like 4 or 5 SSRIS and 1 SNRI and they’ve just been disappointing. Do I still feel like a blank slate or out of energy a lot yeah. It can be hard to have the desire to immerse myself, but I’m trying each day to let my feelings ease up over the weight of those burdens. It’s best not to react to all bad vibrations but ignoring them a good amount of the time is also bad. In the end I want the foundation of my life to have fun with music and friends and try to reach my best potential at guitar. While still being able to enjoy video games and endurance exercising on the side.