Im sitting in the waiting room at my psychiatrist waiting for my turn. Now ive been trying different meds for over 3 years now and i just cant find the right fit. Ive been diagnosed with cyclothymia(on the bipolar spectrum) and ADHD symptoms. Being misdiagnosed couple of different times ,trying meds with all the horrible side effects and i guess im going to change meds for the 10th time since the current ones im taking doesnt seem to work. Im taking 200 lamictal 200 prismaven(antidepressant) 60 strattera

i just cant get my life straight?! Am i asking for too much?i want to have the will to live ,socialize and study like everybody else. Why do i find difficulty in the easiest and simplest things to be done. Why cant i find something i can keep doing for more than a week? Why is life such a struggle like that?isnt it supposed to be easier? Im actually thinking at this moment to just stop taking meds(with doctor’s supervision) and give up on them completely.i know it isnt the wisest decision buy i cant take something that doesnt work!