I dont know but lately ive been having random swings that just feel so bad to handle let alone getting things done in my life with.Its been like that for years where i actually dont know who i am anymore..am i the outgoing friendly passionate wanna-be doctor.or am i just this lazy person who struggles to care for himself.I stopped planning anymore since i know whatever i do..its not gonna last.there will come a day(probably next week lol) where i will stop doing whatever i wanted to do.its frustrating to just think about it and live ur life with it. So im medicated for more than a year now..im currently on Lamictal 400 and some other antidepressant..should i just stop it all since i dont see the point of meds if they are not working..getting the brain fog for basically nothing..feeling like a zombie all day everyday accepting that (for a bigger cause) but yet u get nothing in return?isnt that really frustrating?

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