Been diagnosed with cyclothymia few years ago,thats when my parents noticed my very bad grades (especially for a smart kid)..so since then things are just going for the worst ..my mood swings keep getting more and more debilitating and damaging First thing i lost my childhood friends due to overreaction (from a hypomania obv) ..I took a very bad irrational decision out of the blue and ended up being along for couple of years since that..

Bad mood manifest with little to no hygiene which cuz of that caused me to lose couple of teeth ..

Not attending collage (during the bad days) which puts me way off in terms of grades/progress

Id cut with ppl every now and then and come with an excuse everytime which really sucks (excuses finish after a while) and i/they get bored eventually

Cant get myself to finish one page of studying on important exams that are fatal/can get me to retake the whole year if i didnt pass

Cant get myself to finish a goddamit book..id start with one and then find myself after a day or two bored of it..

Life aint going smoothly or consistently and it sucks..