So as the title already said my old psychiatrist did diagnose me with cyclothymia(i barely could spell it correctly)and i wasn’t convinced by such diagnosis till i noticed the signs and connected the dots.. i had bad days where i would stay in bed most of the day ,break my diet,and basically being nonfunctional for couple of days/maybe weeks at some instance…i wouldn’t harm myself or have any suicidl thoughts and my depression is more of “out of mood” phase in which i wake up with(after sleeping for 12 hours at sometimes) and having my screen time go to whooping 12 hours during that day…those are bad days which compromises most of my life and then there are the better brighter days in which i would be making plans to go and free Palestine and solve world hunger..i wouldn’t gamble /do drugs/stay up late/or do whatever i would basically be me but with bit more energy and optimism for the future..putting plans to lose weight/catch up in college/being more social etc..i would call my relatives during such times making promises to meet them someday soon (lets say the next Saturday)that day comes and when it comes id be “not feeling myself” “out of mood” “they don’t give a damn if i came or not” those kinda feelings and thoughts which made me infamous in my family for not standing up for promises i make and not taken seriously When i did change the psychiatrist i went for another who got me diagnosed with depression and put me on effexor 75 all the way up to effexor 225 ..at first i felt good but then i dont feel it make me any better..im making poor choices in life and lagging behind (i dont care i want these swings to just stop i want to progress in life ffs) im 20