disclaimer: please bear with me, I am still confused with my sexuality. I considered my self as bi, because all my exes are girls, but I have this certain attraction to guys that made me want to try on persuing to guys.

I don’t know if I’ll make sense, but I’ll say it anyway. As a 25 year old ‘closeted’ guy, it has been really hard for me to ‘match’ on my ideal guy. Well, I tried not to be picky but there is always this thing whenever I try to talk/hang out with someone, I always go back on to my ideal guy, which will eventually end up not persuing him. (am I making sense?). I think, its just that my ideal guy is to good to be true(?) if I may say that?

Well, as a guy deprived with reciprocation of care, love, sweetness, and affection, I just wanted to feel those things. Thats why I really want to be submissive as much as possible when it comes to guys. I want to feel those feeing of being cared-of, being loved, and all of those things. (Hahahaha, I just want to be treated as a baby) Wahhh, I dont know if Im making sense. But my whole point here, is that, its really hard to find the ideal one.

(Ill probably add up on to this thread)