So I’ve had this fantasy/kink for a while now and can’t seem to get it right with my hubby. We’ve been married 36 years and have a lot of FMF over the years and recently (on and off again) I’ve had fantasy’s of him having sex and heavy flirting with other women. The problem is we have really haven’t found the right forum to find women and keep messing it up. We’ve tried the dating apps and either the women want an LTR or “forever man” or they are flakes and he ends up getting frustrated. Also, while I get hot thinking about him meeting up with them, the process makes me really anxious. I have access to the apps which is fine because I can watch the conversation real time, but then she will give him her number and they move to text which I can’t see (I’ve been traveling this is all remote). Then I get worried that they are talking behind my back and start wigging out. I completely trust my husband so it’s not d/t lack of trust but rather lack of control. He and I have been fighting about it because he feels that if I really am a “cuckquean” then I should get off on it. But I dont. It just makes me shut down. I really really want him to meet someone and I want to watch him but all this messaging and crap is just making us both miserable. Does anyone else have issues with messaging and “control” issue? I’m at the point where I just want to stop. Help.