Hubby 36M, told me 29F yesterday that finding a third takes up too much time and energy for him and if I want him to play with someone, I have to bring them home for him.

Where should I start? I tried fetlife with no luck. Took a break due to life stuff and deleted all my posts on reddit and all platforms but now can't stop thinking about him enjoying and pleasing another female again and want it so bad. I'm yet to see it in person but loved sucking his cock after he fucked a hotwife this year 🥵 I enjoyed the thought of him finding someone and "cheating" and not telling me till afterwards/seeing a photo online or tasting her on him so bad.