We recently went to a dance competition where the guy she has previously fantasized about during our sex play was an instructor. They have a competition where you can vote by buying tickets and placing them in a container. If your ticket is drawn out of the cup, you get to compete in a fun little competition with the instructor of your choice. Given that there was a high ratio of instructors on this particular day to students, the instructor she has crushed on did not get picked, along with a few others. The first words out of my wife’s mouth were, “Well that’s surprising.” “What?” I asked. “That he didn’t get picked,” she said, motioning towards her crush. l asked her why that was, knowing she has a thing for him. She replied that he was the most fun and easiest to dance with. They ended up pairing the existing instructors up, and during that whole dance competition she would shift back and forth in her seat, visibly trying to get a better view of him as he danced. I noticed she did not do that during the previous dances we watched. Later on I asked her if next time she would like to purchase tickets for a chance to dance with him (she is not the type to like being the center of attention at all), and she said she probably would, which was surprising to me. I guess I’ll be out some money next time.

Rewind a year or two, and at this same dance retreat she had danced with him. We were being instructed on an advanced lift, and I was having a hard time managing the motion and momentum of two consecutive lifts, up-down, up-down (she only weighs 110lbs). Since he was an instructor, he stepped in (he is taller than me, and I am not short, but not stockier than I am) and showed me how to do it. He effortlessly threw her in the air twice, completing the motion with ease. My wife pointed out later that he was able to throw her around so easy, and compared it to how I struggled with the move. Yes, we have talked about how the better you are at dance and rhythm the better you are likely to be in bed. This was one of the first times I have felt like more of a cuck, aside from her almost cheating on me a year or so prior with an ex bf. Talk about demasculating me and talking up someone she liked in comparison…I liked her demeaning me lightly and talking about another man.

Around this same previous time she had danced here and there with him at a dance club we frequented, and she always had a good time with him. In fact, after one of the outings at the club, we briefly talked to him after. Later that night while we were role playing and talking during sex, I had told her to think about him while I was thrusting in and out of her. This, along with other times we did this, I realized she became noticeable more silky wet and turned on. This, in turn, of course turns me on and makes me harder and orgasm harder.

We talked about him after one of the club nights, her knowing that I liked that she expressed having a thing for him, and I asked her if she liked being touched by him and flirting with him. She said she did, and revealed that while talking with him she had been flirtily touching his arm while talking…I couldn’t believe I missed that, as I was standing nearby.

It’s just all the little things that add up. It gives me something to jerk off to and gives me better orgasms thinking about her.

After we went through a rough patch (previously talked about on Reddit), I swore off of porn usage and masturbating for a year and a half, on her request. During this time, to her credit, she did pick up slack in our sex life (I have a higher drive than her), and she very regularly gave handjobs, a little more sex, and more bj’s. It was still not enough for me, as I am sure some of you are similar, in that sometimes all you want is the orgasm release to help you sleep or destress, but not actually want to expend a ton of energy and emotion in intercourse. It started to take it’s toll on my mental well being, as I felt trapped in always asking her to do things for me, and not feeling like I could take care of myself in simple ways to help me. After a year and a half she saw how it affected me and relented, and even though she said she still doesn’t condone it, said she wasn’t going to get upset about me using porn and masturbating. I did remind her that she has recently began to read fairly smutty books (interesting enough, around this time her sex drive was slightly higher), and although the end result may look different, it is something she enjoys reading and I certainly wasn’t going to tell her to stop reading them because I for some reason wouldn’t want her to. In fact, I told her I liked her to read that sort of stuff to get creative ideas and get in the mood easier. Although I really appreciated her helping me out a lot more over the year and a half, I appreciated even more her opening up and being okay with me taking care of myself. It has been a huge relief and helped me mentally. In all fairness she hasn’t really slowed down with her vibrator usage during intercourse, just her helping me all of the time. I have told her and she knows most of the porn I watch is either captioned and primarily has to do with cuckold/HW themes, and I mainly watch them with her in my head, replacing the model with my beautiful wife. Though I tell her regularly, I don’t think she fully realizes how attractive I think she is and how much I get off to her.

Reaching back to a past scenario where she felt she needed to repay me (also recounted on Reddit) for a large horse fence we had erected around the property for her horses, she had previously offered me anal (never before has she) in return payment for the fencing. I declined and told her she needed to work up to it as my girth would hurt, and also mentioned aside from her first orgasm I didn’t get any of her firsts (kiss, bj, intercourse, etc), and how hot I thought that was and that I thought it would be even hotter if someone else took her anal virginity. So we left it at that. Well fast forward and we are in the market for an update to her vehicle. She has driven high end flagship euro vehicles for over a decade, and we are looking for something to up the ante with something even nicer (hard to up it as what she has is upper tier, but newer and more options is about all you can do sometimes). She has already mentioned that if she were to get exactly what she wanted (model, options, color, etc) that she would need to work off the vehicle with sexual favors for me. Sounds like a win-win.

Just retelling here for others to read and to document some of our fun times.