I’m back after the very warm reception I received from my first post! After A LOT (and I mean A LOT) of DMs from wives (sorry, only chatted w/ wives), I felt a need to discuss my first time cuckolding my husband.

This is NOT intended to be erotic (though, I get that it inherently can be). The main purpose of this post is to arm any would-be hotwife/cuckoldress with a bit of anecdotal backdrop on how you may feel / perceive your husband in the moment.

Again, this is anecdotal (as literally every encounter except for yours will be). In other words, your experience is unique to you!

I was confident (overtly confident) that I wanted my husband in the room when we final went through with our first cuckolding encounter. There was not a single ounce of hesitation on that point going into the encounter.

If I could go back in time, I absolutely would have changed it to have been just me and my bull (husband permitting / consenting).

To be perfectly blunt — I don’t think I’ve ever had such an embarrassing experience in my life. I’m shy on all things body image / sex. I’ve never been dominant / controlling in my relationships and certainly never-ever from a sexual / sex perspective.

My husband is / has always been okay with his body, and so he didn’t think twice or hesitate about stripping down while my bull and I started to get heated. It was awful for me. I felt so much shame in that initial moment — his underwear was completely soaked with precum (which, he produces much of). I wanted to hide my husband from my bull — like I almost had to explain to my bull why I chose my husband to be my husband!

For me, it was so difficult to not compare. My bull wasn’t even hard at that point — him and I were just making out up till then. The soaked underwear was humiliating in way — like, I felt that my husband was a high school boy. I tried so hard to keep my bull’s focus away from him and instead on me. I felt an obligation to feel sexy with my bull (and having a crush on my bull definitely amplified that feeling). So, for me, who already struggled to feel controlling / sexual, having to “present” my husband was an extreme derailment.

The second thing. I just couldn’t handle my husband touching himself. It was a constant battle for me to keep my bull’s attention on me and not glancing / looking at my husband (which, in hindsight, was probably wrong considering it was a turn on for my bull to see how small my husband was).

Third — probably the WORST part — my husband came very early in the process. Despite the fact my husband and I spent FOREVER talking about how the experience should go (and emphasizing that he SHOULD NOT cum until after the bull) — it happened (and in hindsight, again, I should’ve expected that since he’s always struggled with his stamina).

My husband cumming took me out of it completely. It’s so hard to continue having sex when you know that your partner is done and potentially dealing with post-orgasm clarity (shame). Another thing, my husband was sat front-and-center of us. The actual cumshot itself / my husband — it was entirely too much for me. I was red in the face the second a noise of acknowledgment was made by my bull.

I detail all this just to flag potential pit falls! I felt shameful but really — and primarily — just extreme second hand embarrassment. Like, here’s this total MAN of bull and then what felt like for me a guy discovering porn for the first time. The thing is, I don’t think my husband felt any embarrassment — so candidly, this was a ME issue. But, an issue nonetheless (and something that “negatively” impacted the encounter).

Lastly, my perception of my husband changed in a REALLY meaningful way. It was hard for me not to see him compared-to-a-"man" in that moment. I felt like it was just biological — here’s this man who’s going to give me what I want and how I want it and then here’s this person just watching / not participating. Yes, aftercare exists and we did PLENTY of that, but just be mindful that you cannot go back to the life you had before cuckolding.