better written post compared to my original

I feel like I know the answer deep down, but wanted to post here for like minded individuals to give me the cold hard truths lol

So, my GF & I have been together for over a decade now. We met online in high school and began a long distance relationship right before college.

We went to different high schools and now different colleges. I tried to go to the same school as her, but out of state tuition was too much.

Things were going well, but the longer time went on, and the fact we never met, my GF wanted to take a break. I was devastated and started acting pathetic saying I’ll come see her right now (12 hour drive lol) and she was very adamant that I do NOT.

I was really upset, but we still talked. I tried out Tinder to no luck and eventually, a short time after, 1-2 weeks, we were back talking and together again. From that point, things were a lot better!

And fast forward to her gradation, where we finally met, and then moved in together, and now 10 years later…things are amazing!

BUT…that 1-2 week break…what happened? She claims NOTHING, and even when I said I wouldn’t care and would be turned on if she hooked up with anyone, she denied it.

When she first sucked my cock, she did it without hesitation or issue. She claims I was the first cock she sucked, and fucked!

Few years ago she revealed she went to a frat house concert with her friends in college. I asked “why didn’t you tell me at the time?” she said “i knew you’d get mad”…mad at what? Party going is innocent enough, right?

She also told me how she got catcalled a lot due to her low cut tops (she’s a pale white chubby girl with huge tits, ass, and thighs lol). She even said her coworker drove her home often and how he wanted her to break up with me 😂

To this day, she maintains innocence through it all, and if I do push, she gets a little upset, so I stop. Is it possible that she truly was a virgin up until me? Yes. But, also it is possible she at least sucked one dick or got fucked at least once.

Whatever did or did not happen, doesn’t change my thoughts or feelings towards her and if she did do a reveal of things she did, it’d strengthen our sex lift IMO.

But for now, it’s all speculation, which is still powerful, but I have an inkling she got up to something, especially during our break time…