Recently I had been posting some confessions of mine and enjoying my new found interest in cuckolding and being cucked. I find reddit to be the best place to express myself since no one can know who I am and none of my friends nor girlfriend really use Reddit so I just feel secure in posting here.

My girlfriend and I were hanging out in her apartment and had ordered food so I went downstairs to the lobby to pick up our DoorDash. I had left my phone on her couch and she went on it. She doesn't know my password but I forgot her fingerprint was still registered on the biometric so she got on it and was looking around. I can't really argue myself out of her snooping because she would just say I shouldn't have anything to hide so I find myself stuck in a corner. But I had my Reddit app opened so she went through my profile. By the time I came back I saw her on my phone and I tried to get it but she asked me what I was doing on Reddit. I told her blankly "Oh I use Reddit for advice on stuff" it's pretty useful but that's all. Then she asked, "What is all this 'cuck' stuff, like you wrote about me and that other guy." ( Context: I had wrote a story earlier about how she was close with a lab partner from our school and I was getting jealous and I wrote about the scenarios I had in my head about what they could be doing and whether I enjoyed the idea.)

I tried to lie that it wasn't me but she said she went onto my "profile" and say "posts" so it was clearly me engaging in that. My heart was racing so fucking hard because I was kind of embarrassed and was hoping I could continue my relationship without ever having to be a cuck. I loved the idea and jerking off to it but I never wanted to actually do it, and I felt if she found out, I might end up going down that path. I just confessed to her basically, "look I was feeling insecure lately and been watching those Reddit story tiktoks about people cheating and been hating that, but for some reason it seemed interesting but I don't now why." She had this kind of smile I don't know what it means, like if someone was crying in front of her, or at funerals she can't help but smile it's just something about her she doesn't mean but she had that. Clearly I think she was trying to sympathize but I felt like she loved hearing this new discovery.

She said, "Then you might be a cuck if you're interested, like you literally wrote you like the idea of <her lab partner's name> fucking me when we leave. Do you really think I'm cheating, like am I a whore? Or is this one of those cuck things I keep hearing about." We're the type of people to call each other names for fun like "you bitch, or you pussy" and "cuck" was something she would call me or her one friend because it was funny to say or hear. She knew what a cuck is and what it entails and she realized I am one. I said, "no you're not a whore trust me, I'm not a cuck I just had these insecure thoughts that's all I just wanted to write my thoughts down." She then started to poke fun at me, "Are you suuuure? Maybe you should try, you never know unless you try right?" I was sitting on the couch at this point but she got on top of me and started poking and teasing at me. "No I don't trust me it's weird."

"Didn't seem like it from what you wrote mister, you want me to take a bigger dick?" Once she said that I felt myself get really horny and I just grabbed her and started humping her, I lost control. We ended up stripping and having sex. "I didn't realize that would turn you into such a monster" she laughed. I think she realized the idea of cucking made me really horny and passionate and she enjoyed sex more. I think she will keep making me feel like a cuck to get better pleasure.

I was really fucking hoping it wouldn't come to this but when I get horny I lost control. I know I'm going to go back to that thought process and let her fuck some other guy and let me watch now. I feel like I lost but won it's so bad.