I had sepsis, and flesh eating bacteria and was hospitalized for 10 days back in September. I just got to the point where I can think enough to crochet. A usual one hour project took me 3. But slowly I'm getting back my thinking ability. So I started a project that will take a bit longer, lots of counting because I thought I was back. Well I grabbed the wrong hook and only realized it after 4 hours of work. I could either frog that piece and lose 4 hours, or have to redo every piece and lose the 12 hours I have into all those parts. Chose to frog the 4 hour work. Grrrr. Rookie mistake. I can't believe it took me that long to realize. Ahhhhhh

. My husband asked what I was doing because he never saw me frog that much work. I explained to him and he said, "It's ok. You still have sepsis brain, want me to frog that for you?". Yes, yes I did. He's the best!

I remembered to write down what hook I was using but I had turned the page and at that point in the pattern I had put it down and came back to a few days later and thought the hook on top of the bag was right. I just can't fully think things through at the moment. It's just that it hasn't been so physically manifested for me before and I cried for a bit.

Grrrrr. I won't give up. I got this. Crochet is part of my pain management for my chronic conditions, something to take my mind off it as much as possible and right now I just can't do it the same. It's supposed to be relaxing and engrossing for me, not a crying frustration.