I’ve already lost so many memories and it hurts me so bad.

I’m an expert at feeling guilt over everything

Thank you. I’m trying to cut down as we speak.

Thank you for your kindness

I’m the same way when I’m sober. It’s not just you.

Damn. That sounds so hard. I’m so sorry you’re going through that. I know that you want the best for your baby and knowing they are sick is probably a lot to cope with. I have empathy for you and your baby.

That made me cry a little. Thank you. I hope she remembers the good times.

I looked up AA meetings in my area. I might need a medical detox though. I don’t have insurance. I’m just gonna try the ER.

Thank you. I’m trying

My dad actually did that one time. It’s a hilarious story, so I’m about to get into it.

He roofied himself to try to come down off cocaine one day. He was completely out of it, and did not pick any of us up from school. My siblings were in elementary school and me and my other sister were in middle school. Eventually, they had to call our emergency contacts and our neighbor came and got us. I won’t do that.

Thank you ❤️

Still alive. Don’t know if I can promise that I’m fighting, but I’m still here to see another day and to be here for my babies.

Thank you 🙏

Mornings are so hard. I usually wake up at 4 AM and have to drink a little bit more to go back to sleep. She wakes up around seven and she brushes her teeth, hair and flosses by herself. I make her breakfast after she does that. Definitely not ideal but I am very proud of her and she feels good about herself

I’ve literally lost all my looks in the last couple weeks. My face looks swollen and I’ve lost so much weight. I have no butt anymore.

I don’t want to die. I want to live as long as I can. I’m just really bad at it.

Thank you so much. I usually don’t DM because my DM‘s get full of trolls all the time and I don’t wanna have to read all that crap. I do appreciate your kindness though and I’m so sorry for your loss.

I’m sorry for your loss. I am 35 and it was about five years ago. Almost 6 now.

Sending it back to you ❤️❤️

Drunk cleaning while blasting my favorite pop music is one of my favorite pastimes

It was IPA beers but they’ve gotten too expensive so I had to switch to vodka for now. When my husband gets paid, I can try to taper with beers again.

What state do you live in curiously? I’m in Texas, and we have a lot of charity-based programs, but no laws that protect us.

I also take something called Kratom which is a legal opiate. It’s pretty weak compared to the heroin I used to do, but it does the trick to keep my cravings at bay .

Honestly, I got some Suboxone last time I detox (hi mysteriously popped for fentanyl, which I don’t do so I have no idea how I gotten in there) and that helped me so much. I would love to be back on Suboxone therapy again.

I will try to do that today. I think I’m a little too far gone at the moment. I’m already shaking again after about 5 to 6 hours without alcohol.

I’m in the same position. I need to get it together, but just struggling a lot.

Thank you very much for saying that. I do try to show everyone love. I am not religious anymore but I still believe that God is love and I try to show that to other people.

You are not wrong. Patience is not my strong suit at all.

Right now he’s helping me by hiding my alcohol from me. He pours my shots out or gives me a beer, but he won’t budge if I try to ask for more. I’m kicking and screaming, but I need to quit for a little bit.

He just hides my alcohol from me and yells at me when I want another shot. I’m not sure it’s productive.

I’m thinking about it. I said no to it for years because I didn’t want to stop. No I’m getting to that point where it’s becoming such a problem in my life that I am desperate to try anything. I’ll try the meds.

I’m so sorry. I know this is a death trap.

Thank you so much for not saying “good luck”. Wishing me the best is so much nicer.

❤️

Thank you so much for being so considerate. I actually am in therapy two times a week. It just really isn’t doing the trick. Alcohol works so much faster and better. Therapy is hard and takes a lot of work.

It’s pretty hard to love myself when I know all the things I’ve done.

My mom is normal. My dad is a drug addict alcoholic in Recovery. But I know how it is from both sides. I have a normal parent and I have an addict parent. My dad hit my mom, but she was such a bitch to him that honestly I don’t blame him too much. I know that sounds terrible.

Edit: my mom is totally narcissistic. I think my dad has borderline personality disorder. He’s only been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but I see the borderline tendencies with how he used to threaten to kill himself all the time.