I took in a deep breath and smiled a little, "Feels nice." I look up into the blue and bright sky, admiring the right amount of sunlight I could get. Today was the day where I was allowed to soak up sunlight, take a breath of fresh and admire nature. Today was also the first day I was taken off of my medicine. It was a hard decision but I knew it would have been more better... no more sickness, no more suffering for everyone. I cough a little and close my eyes for a moment before feeling them well up with tears. I had come to terms in meeting my demise... but I feel pity for myself for not being able to live more and see what the world and the future has for me, I guess that's saved for another lifetime, if that's even a thing. I never got to go to a different country, I never got to learn how to drive, I never got to my first job, I never got to give my friends a last hug, kiss on the forehead and a last laugh. I never got to know how to feel like being able to have people read a story you've written, I never got to know what it feels like going on a first date, I never got to feel how being married and knowing someone's last name is attached to you feels like, I never got to have my own children, which was something I had always looked forward to. I never got to see white hair growing on my head, wrinkles wrinkling up my face Well, that's what is going to happen and there's nothing I could do about it. Maybe that one for me is destined to meet someone who would wake up with them and know that they don't have to worry about them passing away in the next three days, which is better. Less heartbreaks, less suffering for everyone, for myself.