Okay so back in June I started making really good $ for doing pretty much nothing (and no nothing sexual) just got a good hustle with a private company....... Anyway I'm bringing in like $700 a week free money and I'm living home with Mom for now so no bills...... My point is I have been smoking way too much!! Like an 8ball ND a half by myself in 2 days..... The paranoia kicks in ND that has never happened to me before, I've been smoking since I was 18 ( not continuously) ND I'm 33 now, the anxiety afterwards gets me into such a panicked state I sometimes feel like I'm having a heart attack, I get chills, really bad palpations ND irregular heart beat I shake, my vision starts to go, but I can't fucking STOP!!!!! I so don't enjoy it anymore but I can't stop, every Friday when that $ is in my hand I instantly get sick knowing the rock will be coming...... Ugh..... Any input at all will be appreciated and if you're still there and reading this, thanks for hanging in there with me and letting me unload.......