I've been cosleeping by bedsharing about 3/4 of the night. We start our son (5months) off in his bed at first (it's a pack and play in our room) at about 2100 and then at like 2330ish he wakes up and refuses to sleep in his bed. In order to save my sanity and the little bit of sleep that I get, I bring him into our bed. He still wakes up throughout the night (sometimes for up to 3 hours at a time) but we both still actually get sleep. Last night he fell asleep on our bed and slept for a good 2-3 hours before I had to move him so my husband and I could go to bed.

For naps, I rock him to sleep and then put him in his pack and play bed, and he usually wakes up within 20 minutes. But today, I put him on our bed and he napped for over 2.5 hours. He just woke up actually.

But I want to have him start using his crib in his room next month when he's 6 months old. I want to be able to cuddle with my husband again 😅

I just think that I'm going to hand to come to terms with bedsharing. He just sleeps better on our bed in general. And maybe he'll sleep in his crib because it's an actual mattress and not a pack and play, but I also know that with him napping/sleeping on our bed, I actually get things done around the house.

So I'm really conflicted on whether or not I want to keep bedsharing. I'm coming to terms with sharing the bed with him, but I just still am holding on to hope that I may get to cuddle my husband again.

Sorry, I just needed to vent somewhere that won't judge me for bedsharing with my son in the first place.