What sucks is that anyone observing the scene would have a fucked up opinion of you all just because of a snapshot of your lives out of context. If someone saw me at my lowest when I was addicted to porn they'd write me off to. I was using my parents credit cards to pay for private shows with camgirls (they didn't know this yet) when I won an hourlong skype roleplaying show with my favorite model (who I was convinced I was going to marry because she laughed at all my jokes and I felt her laughter was genuine) along with two other members.

The problem was that my internet was running like shit and I found out it was because my mom was using her laptop to watch a livestream of her sisters funeral (she died back in England and my mom couldn't make it home) even though mom was sobbing I just angrily demanded she turn off her computer and when she refused I screamed "fuck you!!!" and picked up her laptop and threw it at the brick fireplace base. Then grabbed my laptop and ran and locked myself in the background while trying to ignore my screaming parents. I had cam-to-cam so the look on the models face as she heard the screaming and pounding on the door as I repeatedly screamed "not listening I fucking hate you all lalalalalal!!!" while angrily beating off, was fucking priceless.

I ended up passing out and had to be taken to the hospital (I had been on the tail end of a 30 hour beatoff marathon) apparently I almost died haha. After an interview with a psychiatrist I was put in a mental institution for 5 months but I'm all better now and have a good job and am engaged to a beautiful woman and things couldn't be better between me and my folks, but if someone were to watch a vid of me on the night of my freakout they would wrongly conclude that I'm an unsalvageable asshole.