This is happening so fast that it's disconcerting for me, yes. However, today I woke up much calmer. I stayed in bed for a long time and thought about everything that has happened and what will happen in the future. If yesterday the idea of fucking my son was somewhat uncomfortable, today I took it so naturally that I don't even recognize myself.

I was always a pervert so I guess it's not that strange, but I took this slutmom thing too easy, tbh I don't even know how to explain it other than... now I can think about everything my husband wants me to do and I'm not afraid or disgusted... I'm just calm and I know I can do it for him.

My son's 3 friends came really early in the morning, my husband took them to eat at one of our restaurants. When he came back he called me to our room and told me what he did. Basically I ask them about their girlfriends (none of them have any) so that I have an excuse to talk about me. I tell them that our relationship is special and that it goes beyond the physical, that even he wouldn't have a problem if I was with other men.

Apparently they asked a lot of questions and he insisted that he wouldn't bother them. Apparently the worst of them all is my own son because he was the one who asked the question "Other men like us?". My husband said he was very clear that yes, if they could convince me to have sex with them, he didn't see a problem with it, even in my house. He also said that he included my son in that. I also find it hard to believe that they can just talk about things like that, but my husband says that conversations between men are like that sometimes.

My husband asked me to put on something that showed a lot of skin and come back with them, but I couldn't, I chickened out and wore the clothes I already had on. When I went downstairs I saw them laughing, my husband said he had to attend to some business and would come back at night and the way they automatically changed their looks was... I don't know how to say it, it wasn't scary but it was shocking. I felt like a rabbit surrounded by hungry wolves.

We talked for hours and the lustful looks they were giving me... Yeah, this turned me on, which is incredibly good for what we're looking for. One of them asked the question "Is it true that your husband lets you have other boyfriends?" I laughed a lot and told him no, not other boyfriends, but that he didn't mind if I got affectionate with other men. They asked me if I had done it and I said no, I would if I felt like it but until now I hadn't wanted to do it. I tried to sound sexy but I was so nervous that I probably just confused them.

Anyway, I was talking to my husband about these conversations last night and he was very happy that they asked me and the answer I gave. He is convinced that they will try something tomorrow and he will make sure that he is not at home.

But he also confessed something I didn't expect... He's leaving for America on Wednesday and coming back in a month... He told me that he really wanted me to be having sex with all of them before he got back. He also told me that it would be great if I did it before my son's birthday, which is in two weeks.

Anyway, I try to stay positive and not shut down, but I was planning on wearing less and less clothes until I was fucked by them, I didn't think I had to speed things up. Wish me luck