I [M23] have just left a serious FWB situation. What do I mean by serious? We have been seeing each and fucking for the better part of 2-3 years. Up until recently where we mutually and respectfully broke things off since my FWB just started to see someone seriously.

This is all well and good… but I got used to the weekly to bi-weekly release I was able to get… so much so that I feel like I’m hornier more often now… I’m jerking off more and getting distracted more and more often than I used to. Thinking of all the fun times I used to have with her, and how I wish she didn’t start seeing someone…

To deter this I thought to go out on some dates, work off some “nervous” energy and who knows, find love… or just some quick release…

Recently I’ve been going on some dates with this girl, let’s call her Lilith. Lilith is a great girl, I made it clear I’m not sure if I want to date; fuck, or just hang casually… but we’ve been respectful with our dates. Seeing movies, getting coffee and dinner, etc. We’ve done tame things like hold hands and hug…

Except I want more

Recently I’ve been imagining her and what I’d like to do to her… How her sweet personality lends itself to an innocent and inexperienced sex life… and how I’d love to teach her… and mold her into my perfect slut.

From making the first day all about her: taking things slow… and showering her in praise and compliments as I feel her up and make her feel good… over and over again. Telling her how pretty she looks and sounds… making sure she knows she is safe with me and that I will always listen to her and treat her well…

To continuing to praise her and call her pretty names as she slowly learns how to please me… teach her to talk dirty to me. To take all those compliments I give her… and to thank me, to thrive off them… till all It takes is a single word for her to get wet for me.

All just thoughts of course… or maybe I should make a more bold move next time I see Lilith…