At first it was about something new and lewd to experiment with while I masturbated. It was fun to broaden that into doing things more risky and perverted. I’m not sure when exactly, but somewhere along the line it began to take actual root. It turned into watching femdom, then findom, then being tempted to onlyfans. I edge anywhere between three and nine times a day… before breakfast, maybe cancel on plans to edge, before and after I shower, at night, before bed, staying up and ignoring sleep, maybe up all night into the next morning. My brain fog is intense. Part of me loves it even though I probably shouldn’t. It’s made me incredibly weak and perverted.