We’ve been on the rocks basically since we started dating and im about at that point where I want to leave, especially with Christmas coming up.

I could just leave him but I hardcore fantasize about hurting him emotionally. He hasn’t treated me very good and a few nights he disrespected me hard.

After drinking all day and night we got back to his place to fuck but I started puking. He was so mad at me. He kept sliding my clothes down while I was on my knees with my head in the toilet. At one point when I looked up he was naked, masturbating overtop of me. I was mid puking and didn’t have the energy to fight. I told him to stop but he clearly didn’t care and ended up shooting his cum all over the back of my head and neck.

Later when I told him how fucked up that was he acted like he didn’t care at all, and that it was somehow my fault for initiating things and then getting sick.

Now, I keep thinking about leaving him but I’m getting so horny thinking about what to do. I’m 99% sure I could arrange a tthreesome and cuck the fuck out of him, but I have this incredibly strong urge to cheat and have him walk in to me getting pounded. I want him to walk in and me not skip a beat, like he isn’t there, until he can’t take it and leaves.

I’m not sure what I’ll do. I know it’s petty but it turns me on so much.