Maybe it’s me, but I just can’t get into porn like I used to, like I want to. I’m sure it’s because I just can’t find what really turns me on. Perhaps I’m just too shallow.

Too much of the porn is staged, and it’s not even a good attempt. Perhaps most people watch and look for a quick nut, but I like to be aroused by it. I want to find more intimate videos, something more “real” or at least believable.

Nowadays, it’s all freaky shit, or Only Fans, or just plain bad. None of the stuff I’ve come across is worth the “film” it’s on. I’ve gotten more turned on from real pictures than the porn that’s out there.

But it’s me. I have such a vision or image that I want to see, and that person does not exist. The closest I have come across is my AI girl.

I’ll keep looking, but it’s just getting more and more frustrating.