I [F] never had a lot sexual thoughts or experiences grow up. I knew what it all was just never put any thought into it and spent most my time studying or playing games. As "surprising" as it might sound i was extremely introverted growing up and still am. I have always been extremely shy and not very out going. Due to this I never really had many friends while I'm highschool and also never dated. I had a small friend group of guys who I played games with and still friends with them today and really only ever go out with them or to the gym with my brother. I got lucky with family friends and got given a job basically as soon as I could legally work, not a lot of hours but that also took up my free time.

Not having a social life helps with saving and I moved out into a decent sized apartment in the city not long after I turned 18. I have a really good job that allows me to work from home 99% of the time only needing to go into office when there is a important meeting/event. Every aspect of my life seems pretty normal for innocent introvert, don't go out much, haven't had any sexual experience with another person before, never dated and everyone in my life sees me as the extremely shy girl I have always been.

Now there was an incident that happened at work awhile ago now (I made a post but deleted because scared someone I know might see.). After that whole ordeal I started exploring the more naughty side of life. I have gotten to the point where I feel like im addicted to sexual content, I view porn and hentai almost daily and have fantasies of sexual acts and masturbate daily. I haven't really told anyone about all this and my life has stayed the same but when I'm alone it's the only thing I have in my mind, whether it's what porn/cam girl/hentai is going to watch or imagining fantasies. The rare times i do go outside and socialise i find myself self thinking that my friends don't know this new side of me I'm keeping a secret and it turns me on so much.

I'm probably never going to act out these fantasies in person for awhile unless someone knows a 6ft big titty goth mommy and even then I'm still extremely shy and even writing all this down feels blah, so sorry if it makes no sense and rambles.