I just turned 18 literally today so I thought I’d finally make an account to post on rather than just lurking on here. I was listening to some audioporn cuz I was horny af after getting home from my birthday celebration with some friends. And I found one that was better than anything I’ve ever seen, read or listened to before. It was this post https://www.reddit.com/r/GWASapphic/s/xQkQk2OLiu and this story is like the best birthday gift I’ve had, I am literally obsessed with it. I have never gotten so into anything before and it felt like I was literally there in the moment and experiencing everything for myself, I was crying halfway through and felt shivers through my body but I couldn’t stop listening to it and masturbating, it was so extremely hot and I felt like it was all really happening to me and it was as if I could even see and feel it. It brought back so many memories and emotions and maybe I’m just a broken traumawhore or something but I had my best orgasm ever from it, my entire body was shaking and quivering and I’m laying here with my bed still a bit wet 2 hours later after squirting from that amazing orgasm. I’ve even been listening to it on repeat multiple times over again just to try to try to feel that same pleasure again because it was truly so much better than any orgasm I’ve ever had. But I just can’t get that feeling back, it is still amazing and I love it just as much and will probably keep listening to it daily until I get bored of it, which will probably take a while lol. I tried looking for some others and sure they were good but nowhere near anything like this. I need help finding something that is the same level as this thing, I want something dark, I want to relive my trauma. I know there’s probably some place to find it but I don’t know where to look, if you find something or maybe can make something yourself then please I beg you to help me out here. And nothing that costs money, or at least not too expensive. Since I just turned 18 I just got full access to view my bank account and saw that my parents had taken out the majority of what should’ve been in there so I’m pretty much broke rn, I don’t even have enough to get the food I was expecting to have for the rest of the month, I’ll probably have to live on one or two packs of noodles per day💀I really wish I could pay for it, I would literally give anything for it but I don’t have anything to give😭 when my financial situation gets better I’ll definitely pay for it if I find a woman good enough to make something like that. I think there was more stuff I wanted to say but I already forgot it so I’ll just say that I hope that anyone who might read this has an amazing day!