Honestly, the title says it all. But it's been such a confusing and weird two months for me and knowing that at the end of it, my body -- which I work really freakin hard on -- and how I present it -- which can be really intense at times but I don't care it's worth it -- is the reason men cum, means so goddamn muuuch.

I don't care how intense it gets, and even how stupid it might sound, I want to be great jerk off material for men.

I push myself every day extra hard at the gym for you guys. Wear shorts that squeeze up my ass for you guys. Let myself get objectified in fitness spots for you guys. I know I need to get better at finding a balance but god it makes me buzz up so much.

Sorry for the random post. Happens to me when a new fitness spot I've done gets posted and I get A LOT of intense male attention. Fuck. Just thank you thank you thank you