I have tried many times to stop doing this but it’s incredibly difficult to stop. I go for some days and then I’m suddenly under a spell and I’m doing it again. I have looked into it. Seems like it is some sort of mental illness or the symptom of an illness.

I don’t do it to unsuspecting people. I don’t really want to claim victims for my sexual paraphilia. But I do go fully naked for random strangers/voyeurs who just watch me. Often they will talk to me over mic but it will usually be only me visible on cam.

I really enjoy it in truth, it makes an orgasm feel more intense. But I wish I could stop doing it as a compulsion. It makes me have to stop what I’m doing or rush home to engage in this behaviour. If I don’t give into the compulsion immediately the need becomes stronger and stronger until I do.

I think I need help, I just wish it didn’t feel so good.