I am yours. I meant it when I said it. My disappearing act is about survival, not disobedience. If you are my gentle king, then you’ll already recognize this message.

I’m not above begging, if that’s what you require. I’m sorry I can’t always be who I want to be. You are my secret, and secrets often must be locked up. But when I am finally alone, late at night, I only want you.

If you’ve decided I am not worthy of your time and attention after my behavior, I understand. Sir. I cannot promise it wont happen again. I could have sent you this message directly, I know, but I thought you deserved a more adroit gesture. If you still want me, I will be waiting.

-M.